Hey everyone I made a new LJ account! I don't like how this one kind of spiraled into emo-ness, and I always hated the name, so go check out my new one at Tiny Griffon Wings. Thanks!

Man, I don't know what is with me and my sleep patterns lately.

Every night I feel like I'm tired but I just don't want to sleep. D: It's very strange with me, but I think all my insomnia problems boil down to stress (considering how well I *use* to sleep before). Gahhh...

I find my best remedy is to work out 3-5 hours before going to bed but my workouts suck haha.

I guess that's one thing I miss about my apartment... Our clubhouse had a nice little indoor gym. I would use that pretty often during the day and it would tire me out when I needed.

And if I had a job maybe I could actually walk to the gym nearby my house and use the equipment there... -_-; I hate how everything just comes down to me needing a freaking job.

So I got my haircut really short yesterday! I like it a lot, and I feel so freeeee. :3 I got 10 inches cut so I could donate to locks of love, but unfortunately I don't even have the money to send it in the mail quite yet. ^^; It won't be much though so I'll have to check. Oh and my hairdresser is so awesome, she made me pay only 20 dollars for it! It's worth so much more though! /lucky

MEH DELETED FOR OOGLYNESS :(((

Applied to Starbucks today... Even though I know nothing about coffee at all... *oh boy* I've gone through several other websites but their applications confused the hell out of me so I couldn't continue or even start most. c_c; In the time of doing all this I also killed two NMs for my dragoon empyrean weapon on FFXI haha.

I want a job sooo bad. :(( Please, oh please give me a job someone! Anyone!

Can't sleep (as usual), so I'm gonna clean up some of my old posts on LJ cause I don't like them! I don't think they will be missed either, but I'ma set them to be viewable by me only.

Just so you know~

I think my LJ payment thingy ended because I don't see as much avatars on here now. D: Nooo!

I need a job soo bad. :( I'm having no luck at all with online applications ugh... I'm having to cut back on my ffxi expenses (deleting two mules this month hopefully), and finding other things to be frugal with as well. ;_; It really blows to be broke.

Once I get my hair cut on the 22nd I'm gonna start heading out again to look for nearby job openings (yes, I am that paranoid that I'll be judged because of my ugly long hair. -_-;) I'm thankful I got a bit of money for Christmas to pay for this, hopefully it will be the start of my turning point this year for getting a job and planning my future.

I've been waiting so long for this haircut holy crap I need it so bad!


Do want job nao plz. ;_;

I've been thinking of going to college to study how to be a chef once I have the money. I enjoy cooking on my own, and I guess that should be good enough for me to start stepping in the right direction.

Hmmm it's just... I couldn't decide before, and I'm being picky for what I would think to be a good reason, right? I mean, I obviously don't have money to throw around if I were to change my mind, but this just seems good enough. It doesn't reach out and grab me, but I can't really think of anything that makes me feel that way when it comes to future careers. *sigh*

But I do seem to enjoy cooking I think, it's hard to say. :(

Oh well.

I'm honestly scared of a war breaking out soon.

Ever since the day reports of North Korea attacking South Korea came out into the media, I've been trying to keep myself updated on the situation (more-so with BBC news, but I'm checking multiple news sites as well).

I have a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach that things are going to go very, very badly soon. Countries like North Korea and Iran making it so well known that they have nuclear facilities, both saying they use it for peaceful non-violent reasons (yeah, right).

Let's hope a full-blown war doesn't break out, because it will certainly involve nuclear weapons if it does.

Ugh I'm so worried about my friend too, he's stationed in South Korea right now, though he is still set to move to Japan soon. I hope things will get better...

Finished Tales of Vesperia! It's a really good game, I enjoyed it very much. ^^ I'm still gonna work on my final GRADE and the EX Dungeon. It's funny how much there is to do on this game, even after you beat it... xD Wow.

Ugh and I wish I could think of some other jobs out there. Tried looking at a few, Target being one of the "better" ones, but all the positions are taken up.

I think I'm going to have to buck up and work at Safeway. @_@; Maybe they won't be as bad as Haggens was ugh...

But anyway I don't want to ruin my mood so I will just remain hopeful for now.

Had my group interview today with a few other people at Costplus. Apparently I'm going to be possibly hired for a seasonal position, which I guess I don't mind, but I had kind of hoped that it wouldn't be just seasonal. ^^; Oh well.

I think my interview went okay, but I felt myself get nervous ugh. ~_~; And the worst part was when I forgot the address of my old apartment on my background check form... Agh. I couldn't remember it for the life of me so I had to ask if it was okay to put my first home's address there instead of my last one (but the way I asked it made me sound like I was slightly retarded). Ugh. /facepalm

Otherwise everything else I felt like went by okay.. I think I hid my nervousness pretty well after that. Blah I hate social anxiety.

Oh and for some weird reason I'm really... Dizzy. I feel like I'm gonna pass out when I get up. @_@ I don't know why I keep getting dizzy spells like this.

So I finally ACTUALLY got a call for a job interview on Monday to a store called "World Market." I'm very much hoping to get this, because this job actually seems pretty darn good to me. I love this store and I'm fairly familiar with it, and I don't think it will get to busy even during the holidays (but I could be wrong hah). Also it's right next to Red Robins so if I ever get hungry for a burger I can go there for lunch! 8D

I just hope I do okay on the interview... When I get nervous I stutter so much. >_<; I curse the shy side of me. Compared to before though I do feel more confident, but social anxiety has always been my weakness. :(

Trying out a new layout for my LJ. :] I really like this one so I'm gonna stick with it I think.

If anyone has any good layout suggestions please tell me. ^^